Perfection

Inherit Blessing kit by Creative Victorian Designs
(with Regency Beauties doll)

Have you ever had one of those relatives who you thought was perfect in every way? Perfect face, perfect hair, perfect family... For me, that was my Great Aunt Joyce. She always seemed so picture perfect to me. As a little girl, I wanted nothing more than to be just like her. I often dreamt of being her daughter. It was understood that if anything ever happened to my mom, that I would go live with another aunt...Oooo that made me so mad...I wanted Aunt Joyce.
Of course time went by, and I found that my picture perfect aunt wasn't exactly what I had imagined. A few years ago my cousin commited suicide. In talking with my aunt, I found out that because everyone in the family always thought she was the pillar of strength, she endured trials and tribulations all alone. That the pillar was weak and needed support, yet everyone always leaned on it. Even when mourning the death of her only daughter, she was called upon to arrange the funeral of her best friend, because her family was so distraught. It was then my antie told me that the letter I had written to her when my cousin died, was her saving grace. That I was her pillar, and that she read my letter from time to time and would just cry.
In some ways, I still wish I was like her. But I'm sure some of what she represented to me, rubbed off on me. I pray that Jesus is allowed to enter her house and her heart to relieve some of her pain. I pray for her all the time.